Pure desperation my friend. I first used anabolic steroids January 1st 2016. By august of that year I was applying to be a source and got approved actually in November. I was turned away initially as you probably saw. So the background.
I worked in the oilfield in Texas and got laid off in March 2015. The gist of it is, I went from making ~100k a year to like... 40k maybe. I could not find a job paying anywhere near enough to cover my bills. I had built a cabin in my dad's land with a pretty short term loan and had a nice pickup truck that I was upside down on. So through out 2015 and the first part of 2016 I was pretty much living off credit cards. I refinanced the loan for my cabin too and got some money for that. I was really just trying to get by until I found a better job to stop the financial bleeding. Well in June it all kinda came to a head. I officially ran out of money. Credit cards maxed out, refi loan money gone, plus I had proposed to my girlfriend and she initially said yes and then 2 weeks later broke up with me. So I was just fucked up man. Rough patch for sure. So I decided to file chapter 7 bankruptcy and enroll in school. So now not only am I broke as fuck, but I no longer have a home or vehicle. Note that I sold all my stuff prior to filing, because for one I needed the money to pay the lawyer and also didn't want them to have anything to take from me. So cool I got a plan to go to school, my buddy told me I could stay in his extra bedroom, but I didn't have a source of income. I was looking on SST one day back in the old reddit days mind you, and I saw freedom labs say something about getting 100 emails a day or something like that. And I was like fuuuucckk those guys must be making tons of money. I know I can never be like that but maybe I can try this out and make enough to put myself through school. So I just started googling how to make steroids lol. And started buying the stuff the internet said I needed. I definitely fucked up a little bit. I exploded a liter of tren in my buddy's kitchen. I bought non-separated capsules and had to sit there for fucking ever separating 5000 capsules. But I learned as I went. And I'd dare to say I matched freedom labs by the time it was all said and done. As I started getting orders I bought new raws, made new items, got professional labels made instead of the ones I printed at home. Had a pretty good lineup of pharmaceutical products. Clen, t3, t4, caber, hcg, HGH... Felt good man