Get over here bro…
In my 20s, been on for 9 years now. I was on TRT to start, and so afraid of needles that I had to go to the doctor for my injections. I still can’t even watch other people get IVs in movies and TV shows lol. It’s never been about the pain, so needle size doesn’t really matter to me (I use tiny needles regardless). I’ll tell you that it does get better over time, but for me it’s never gone away. I, like you, dread every injection, put it off, shake a bit, get sweaty, and overall just get anxious before, during and experience residual side effects of that anxiety after. It sucks big time, but I’m proud of myself for getting to the point where I am in all honesty, and for having done ED and EOD shots in the past (never again). I pray that it just goes away one day, because you know, I’ve done this literally thousands of times at this point, but something in my brain just won’t let it happen lmao. Exposure to my irrational fears has never seemed to have any success.
I did a subq hCG shot today and it took me like 3-4 attempts to break skin, little fuckin 31g 6mm slin pin and I always have to reposition it over and over again. Shit is sad.